Misty Heart

Are we really running out of time? In the beginning there was no time, no rush, no stress at all. If toiling is punishment for men, and so is longing for women. This became so, because of greed and pride. We always wanted to have it all for no reason. Even in the "Garden of Eden" man and woman were never satisfied with God's perfect comfort; so that with His instruction of Not Touching only one tree ... only one ... disobedience reigned inside the hearts of man while living in paradise. Clearly, everything in our existence never truly come without, it all comes within of what we become.

Human heart is full of deceit; for there lives adultery, slander, greed, revenge, and all sorts of filth heaven can absolutely name and see. I wonder how Eve loved Adam those days in paradise when they were just alone as human together in a very big world with no illness, danger, and death to fear. Yet, unsatisfied eagerly wanting to know what that serpent was actually telling her. If we come to think of it seriously, it was her who came near to that crafty snake. She listened and believed! Eve, in the presence of the Almighty God, had that doubt and curiousity quietly nourishing it within the depths of her heart. She had everything a woman could ever need in this world we live now. Yet, that attitude of wanting all, knowing all, having it all, and mine all caused this world to pay its big price even to this very day. That is exactly every woman's penalty, 'longing to seek for truth' ... LOVE. But then again, we still listen to this world's cleverness believing with its foolish definitions; rather than leaning on to God's which is clearly given in 1 Corinthians 13:4-8. Let us examine one by one:

LOVE is PATIENT vs. LOVE is BLIND

- Patience is having self-discipline and control. It is taking time on its proper use. It is giving bigger space to every little drafts of life one composes before finally presented. Blindness is a disability to see. Every corner of your life is dark and uncertain. It is dependent on to one who just leads. It is dangerous.

LOVE is KIND vs. LOVE is PAINFUL

- Kindness is giving way to your neighbor. It is humbly considering that others is better than you. It may hurt sometimes, but never harm. Pain is such an uncomfortable feeling that none in the entire history of man ever had run after it. This worldly definition in love for pain is harsh and harmful. It is when discipline and control stand its way that it becomes cruel and unkind, so that the so-called pain is harmful.

IT is NOT RUDE, ENVY, NOT BOASTFUL, & NOT PROUD
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LOVE is JEALOUS, OBSESSION, & POSSESSION

- Clearly, it is not lifting oneself up for having the one you love. It is not a showing-off ones ability provoking the other of what you have and what one does not. It is not telling the whole world that you are loved; but, it is giving your heart to the one you love. Jealousy is one sign of lack. It is a desperate of wanting of what you are not. Obsession is nothing but coveting thy neighbor's ownership. It is a wicked form of getting what one desperately want. It is owning of what is not yours. Possession is evil. It is a harsh way of owning anything you wish to have in your own hands.

LOVE is NOT SELF-SEEKING, NOT EASILY ANGERED, & IT DOES NOT KEEP THE RECORD WRONGS

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LOVE is YOU & ME AGAINST THE WORLD, IT IS FORGIVING NOT FORGETTING

- Many had been victims of this worldly definition of love. How can one forgive from not forgetting the offenses? For there is no partiality in the name of true love. It is just Yes or No; black or white; dark or light. How then can dark & light come into terms together? Building your own world against your own odds is so limited. How then can a couple live in limits when all were born with so much needs? The basic unit in the society is the family. Everything that exists are all connected according to its purpose and function. One wise man said, "If you want to live in misery, start with the pronoun "I."

LOVE DOES NOT DELIGHT IN EVIL BUT REJOICES WITH THE TRUTH. IT ALWAYS PROTECTS, ALWAYS TRUSTS, ALWAYS HOPES, ALWAYS PERSEVERES.

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LOVE MAKES THE WORLD GO ROUND

- No wonder why most couples never stop committing the same mistakes. The life they live never really change, because when it does ... it is no longer round. I could not just imagine living in a spinning world. When you're up, you're happy; when you're down, you're lonely. Is that it? I don't see life in this kind of love. It is all feelings, and nothing more. No protection, to belief, no hope, and no perseverance ... you just become a rider, and when you're done... you're done! Sadly, many never realizes when their so-called round-love is nothing but a trap where one relationship never truly grows.

LOVE NEVER FAILS vs. LOVE SUCKS & IT KILLS

- Love is God, and God is Love. He is the inventor of Love. So that His words never really fade. The latter is a human kind of love-construction, always fail in the end.

Since the Fall of Man in the Old Testament to this day, women seek for comfort, protection, security, and assurance in the name of true love. We need a strong person who would stand for us who has all the patience, for we are difficult to understand; kindness, for we are too weak and sensitive that we easily get hurt and lost. We become so envious, boastful, prideful, and tend to be cruel because of so much lack within. That is why we need a strong one designed for us who is exactly the opposite. One who is not self-seeking, and who knows how to control such temper; one who never remembers an offense.

In the deepest thoughts of a woman's heart, there is always a secret room where all her truth lies within. Only the one she truly loves can enter its room. Sad to say, many even in ancient times had rarely entered its place. Not even marriage can break its door. The key stands with the one who truly owns her misty heart.

THE MORNING BEHIND

I know what you have going through, and I understand very well all the visions in your heart and mind; all the the wishful thinking, I believe, we both have. I dream the same dream like yours. But I guess, that is the only best place where our hearts and minds could ever meet peacefully without anyone to hinder us with our great fantasies.

Each time I realize the truth behind us, the bruises starts to pique my sanity. But I always find my way coming back with you there. I think of you a whole lot. I say this, in case you do not know. But my heart could sense very clearly that only your uncertainties are the ones stopping you from listening to what my heart whispers. Now, tell this to yourself...I, am with you!

We may never be together in this world we live; you and I, no matter how we try both know the reason why we cannot. Not because I am what I am now or what you are and what you will be. But because, no man could ever live with his fantasies forever. It is just hard to fall in love with dreams and wishes. Yet, that is the only best secret place we could meet...to touch you, to hold you, to hug you, and...to love you!

There is a purpose to all these; why we had to like us this way; why I had to meet you that way; and, why I have to go away.

You are just doing so fine now. Go on, and leave me here. I can take care of myself. Run! Move-on to your life's journey. There, you will see me again at the end of the road. Your princess will meet you someday somehow in time. She may not be like me...but, when her heart starts to whisper...that is then the time you meet me again. That very thing our sparkling hearts feels for now, shall be the same with your sparkling moments with her someday. And when the time comes, you will just smile and remember all the wonderful sparkling moments we shared whether near or far. The memories will echo in your mind reminding not much of me...but, to what my heart really tries to whisper with you each day.

Now you know what you really are to me...so, it is time for me to go. Just remember this, it is not in the long span of time that two people stays together to measure each others hearts...it is in the quality of time how you share your special moments together even for a short while to make two hearts beat as one.

The sun is now rising. Wake up! ... It is morning. Unhold my hands behind you; let these hearts start anew. Allow this moment for us to remind...that this is just The Morning Behind.

Till our hearts meet again...goodbye!

The Morning Behind (Enhanced)

In every woman's heart, there is always a secret room where she files all her deepest truth suppressed by time and age. The beauty within speaks so softly of her warm affection and sincerity brought forth by such aches and frustrations; yet, true happiness and joy lies within.

This envious world had inflicted so many hearts, left with such unsolved mysteries of one's soul. True love had been overtaken by fear caused by false judgment, prejudice, and of lack. Ignored by the one she truly loves, her heart would turn vengeful that cripples such walk in a period of time. Silent tears within shouts in the highest peak telling the whole world what would she become from the bruises and pains it caused her. Then she keeps coming back to her best secret place called "my sanctuary." There, she feels complete, so loved, so secured, full of beauty and radiance she'd ever desire. Love begets love; so that only love could heal her wounded soul. Listen! For my heart speaks longing to be genuinely heard. Wipe its tears as she demands, begging for gentleness and comfort in words, deeds, and in truth. Sadly, this world is too sick to comprehend a simple sincere request. She begins to dress herself so loud offending every wicked individual arousing their flesh leaving them in thirst with such discontent. Playing the name of the game, "Starve for Love." For you only gave me a taste of honey but never fed me in full; a glass of tears instead of living water; torn my soul into choice cuts from such scheme brought about with a never ending selfish wants. Until one moment, she learns to create a man of her own inside her deepest thoughts. A man of her dreams that only exist in the world only she can enter. World full of love and security she ever needed. A world she calls her own paradise.

Every woman's heart and soul has a place to live where she is called goddess. She does not rule there, for she has her own king in it to be served, respected, and truly loved. This is a paradise where men had been longing for; to be given reverence and lordship from us. Yet, not even few had come to reach this place. Because many of them are too weak to defeat their own demons, so that they have been overtaken by pride, captured by the deceits of fortune, fame, and lusts. Only love with a golden heart of one man can enter her paradise in time. Let the shining sword of wisdom, shield of faithfulness, breastplate of truth, and helmet of security bounded with the armor of genuine love be worn once more like a brave ancient man who could beat a dragon on their way to get to a place called "The Goddess Paradise" where women had been cleansed from the fruit Eve ate in the Garden of Eden in the beginning of time. But then again, this sick physical world had killed many of them. Few good men are now in lesser numbers. That is why few good women live, because most of our heart and souls are in the goddess paradise where she can only enter.